Tuesday, August 17, 2010

It’s Hard to Say Good-bye

I have a confession. I’ve been a bit melancholy lately and I’ve not really known why. Last week I finally figured out what on earth was going on. I *gulp* dislike change. Hard to believe, huh? Someone that has spent the past five years traveling doesn’t like change?

It’s a wee bit difficult for me to wrap my mind around so it will probably be near impossible to communicate with you, but I’ll try. When we were traveling with my husband’s job, I ‘knew’ that we were either on the road or that the potential was there to travel. So if my husband came home after lunch and said, “We’re leaving for Atlanta tomorrow,” I was okay because I knew that was my life. It doesn’t mean that at times I didn’t wish that things were different. It doesn’t mean that those words never caused my blood pressure to spike.  It doesn’t mean that I was always grateful for the opportunities that were before us but I had learned to deal with it in my own way.

I know it was time for us to move into the house and I’m so thankful that we have been able to settle down and actually *feel* settled- that’s the key word- because for the first time in several years, I feel like we’re really home. We’ve found a new church that we attend, we’ve joined a homeschool cover school (as outlined by our state’s law), we’re meeting new friends, I'm signing the kids up for music lessons that they've wanted to take, I'm starting a Charlotte Mason inspired co-op, I’m scoping out stores and places to shop on *my side of town* and each day we get more comfortable.

So, what is my problem? This is it…for over a year, we lived here:

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more camper pics 007…imagine adding two adults and three children that are all taller than my husband and myself, a two year old adopted pound puppy and all our necessary belongings. Not a whole lot of room.

Inside the camper, we were within steps of one another, sometimes literally running into each other and everyone was within both my line of vision and earshot. As cramped and crowded and sometimes unappealing as it sounds…this was one of the best times I have ever spent with my family and I miss it. Even though I now have a bathroom that I can change clothes in without banging into the walls, a kitchen sink that was almost bigger than my entire kitchen in the camper, a closet that holds all my clothes with plenty of space for more and my very own washer and dryer…I already miss it. And though I know we are doing what is best for our family right now in this season of our lives, it’s going to take me just a wee little bit to adjust. And just incase you just skimmed this post and didn't read the entire thing let me make one thing perfectly clear, I do feel blessed. Does feeling blessed have to mean that I also can't feel just a tiny bit sad too? I don't think so.

So forgive me if I'm having a hard time saying good-bye.                   

11 comments:

  1. It is hard to say goodbye when you are used to something that you obviously loved. :)

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  2. I hear you! Saying goodby is hard. But when you close one chapter it means you're about to open a new one which I think is exciting!

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  3. Thanks for joining in Hip Homeschool Mom's / Hop. I'm anxious to get to know you better! LOVE your blog and heart!

    Meghan
    www.thetuckerstaketennessee.com
    www.facebook.com/hiphomeschoolmoms

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  4. God has new things for you. You must walk this path in order to get to HIS destination!

    Feel blessed that you are planted. We've been in limbo (housing wise)for 2 1/2 years.

    God will be with you.

    Blessings and hugs,

    Janet

    www.homeward4.blogspot.com

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  5. {Hugs} Isn't it great that you blogged all about those wonderful times with your family? Now you'll have those memories.

    I have a post request, if that's ok? How about your best moments living in an RV? You could look back over your posts and remember and then share them with all of us.

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  6. I totally get it. I LOVE Hawaii and my new home and life. Every day it feels more like we're settled. And yet I miss Georgia (which I never liked all that much) and am quite sad right now. It will pass...

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  7. Change is hard. But, since you know what you're doing is right, and you know how blessed you are, I'm sure it won't be long before the meloncholy passes, and is replaced by new joy.

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  8. Great Idea Dana! I love that. You will look back and just laugh and cry at all the fun things you did as a family. Everything has a season...cry if you want to...then laugh!

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  9. I hate change, too. So I totally understand. It's better if you "grieve" a bit before you move on. Don't ever feel bad for being who you are.

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  10. Thanks everyone! I do appreciate your comments and since Dana and Melismama have requested, I'll get to that Top Ten and try to post it in the next week or so....Blessings!

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  11. 8) I look forward to reading it!

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